I'm sick. All the freaking time. And no I'm not just talking about in my head, but there is that too (and I'm sure it is not helping). What my doctor has deemed "IBS" (which stands for "I'm Baffled, Shit...), has gotten far too out of hand at this point. As if people love talking about this let alone reading about it, but as I said before, some times reading about someone else going through the same thing I am makes me feel better and I hope that maybe I can do the same for others.
So the point I'm at; I had my gallbladder removed a couple of months ago due to infection (and stones). I was already starting to fall apart then but it seems to still be getting worse. So this "IBS" which was deemed on me after running some blood test and not really showing anything they already had a name for, has been with me a while but it seems that over the last few months, it now owes my ass (get it?).
I haven't had a solid stool in months. I have to poop on demand no less the 5 times a (and that is the low end number). My ass is raw from all the stomach acid I pass and I never know when it's going to strike which makes planning any time away from home and little stressful (Like volunteering in my kids classroom).
Side note: I just had more blood work done on Monday but have not heard anything back.
Well I think last night was my all time low point. I shit myself in my sleep. This is nothing anyone every wants to have to admit to and I only tell it here because this is supposed to be my way of getting it out of my head some it doesn't eat me alive (but it might anyway).
Now I'm going to guess that it happened sometime very shortly after falling asleep. I take sleep meds because I'm a chronic insomnia (just another of my lovely issues) and most of the time once I fall asleep I am dead to the world. SO when I woke up far sooner then I normally would, and realized what had happened, I jumped out of bed and got cleaned up with I guess you can say minimal damage. I'm guessing I most likely woke myself up knowing what happened without my whole brain being on board yet and lord knows when I've got to go, it now of never so any slow up can result in tragedy. But none of this make me feel any better and SHITTING MYSELF IN MY SLEEP. It's a pretty big low point for me.
